I've been very...curious lately. That isn't the right word, but I can't think of the one I want. Inquisitive? Thoughtful? Bah. I've been thinking a lot, but not like usual. More broadly, about unimportant or random things. It may just be because I'm having quite a difficult time concentrating/focusing lately... I swear I'd have lost my head by this point was it not attached to my neck. I'm definitely a bit out of sorts lately, I'm just not sure what to attribute it to... I can't even figure out how to explain. I just feel a bit odd. Who knows...
I do have a few things going on. It's our busiest time of year at work; it's Spring Break so it's super chaotic but also really fun. I get to see hundreds of "kids" who willingly and excitedly give up their Spring Breaks to volunteer their time to help someone who has less than they do. It's comforting to know that there are still people in the world who put others before themselves, or lend a hand to someone in need purely out of the goodness of their hearts. It's an amazing thing to witness.
This weekend I've given myself a project of sorts. I have some things that need to be packed up and moved out, and then I want (need) to go through like EVERYTHING. I still don't know where my camera is, and that's upsetting to me. I don't want to buy another one as there's better places my money can go right now as I go off on my own, so to speak. Of course a camera is not a necessity but memories are so special to me and so important, and lord knows I have the worst memory in the world. I'm more just irritated because I know it's around here somewhere, just not in any of the "usual" places. No doubt I was in a hurry and put it somewhere and said "Ah, I'll definitely think to look here when I need it!" and it's right under my nose somewhere. Frustrating though.
Life is frustrating me right now. It's like so much is on the tip of my tongue, and I either can't think of how to put it or explain. I have all of these random thoughts and I've started writing them down, but then when I try to put them together I can't seem to do it. I don't know, maybe I'm just overtired and all the stress is taking a toll on me... I'm definitely scared about the near future, I won't deny it, but I'm also very excited. I'm proud of myself for some things and I'm looking forward to some others. I know that I still get down often and although it's something I am working on, I still have a long way to go... But, overall I am actually feeling confident, excited, at ease. Even though I have a lot of day-to-day stresses, overall I am calm...I know that I'm doing the right thing and I'm trying to have faith that everything will work itself out. Even though I'm not there yet, I'm confident I'm on the right path, and I am really grateful and appreciative of all the love and support so many people have given me. I hope that soon I can be the friend that you deserve in return.
Soooooo um here's some of my random thoughts to close out this babble...
If I could meet any celebrity, I'd probably pick Ellen. Or Craig Ferguson.
I find it really frustrating when people who do really bad things get everything they want in life... I know that's probably a horrible thing to say. It's just like...do they even learn anything?
Every girl should be swept up into the arms of a man who loves her at least once in her life.
I don't really get why people are so harsh about "Glee"... My assumption is it's judgment without ever having seen it, simply because all it is is a group of really talented people who sing and dance... Okay, there's some drama too but, it's still about the music!
I've spoken to a lot of friends lately who are really hurting. I wish people weren't capable of falling in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way. That should be how it works... No more heartbreak.
"Letters To Juliet" is quite possibly my 2nd favorite movie ever. I can't watch it enough. Love.
I think we can change our thought processes and what we think about, but I'm not sure that really changes what's in our hearts.
Cinnamon Toast Crunch is the devil.
I like the quote that says, "I love you not only because of who you are, but because of who I am when I'm with you." I think that's so beautiful. The people we love can bring out the very best in us.
If a person can't make an album/sing live without using autotune and all kinds of other effects, they shouldn't be making an album. Leave it to the people with actual talent.
No one should make someone fall for them if they have no intention of catching them when they do.
Sometimes I think it isn't a choice whether or not to give your heart to someone... Sometimes it gives itself away without warning (or your permission). There really isn't anything you can do.
In relationships of any kind, you should always lay all of your cards on the table. Anyone worth having in your life will love you as you are, and they deserve your honesty in return. Everything catches up to you at some point... It's all connected somehow. Hiding things or lying helps no one. Not even you.
Some people make me really just wonder WTF happened that makes them think they're so important, or better than everyone else.
Sometimes, I really do wish I could hate some people.
A troll is a troll is a troll is a troll. What is it? Oh that's right - a troll.
I intend to start a new escort service that shall be called Laypal. (if you don't know that's a joke, well...)
Some people forgot my birthday...or just intentionally said nothing. Either way it's kinda... :(
If you could snap your fingers and right now be with anybody, anywhere... Where would you be?
And who would you be with?
