Trusting Desire, Starting To Learn, Walking Through Fire Without A Burn...

Things are calm. Serene. I'm finding myself a little on the lonely side today for some reason, but I'm also thankful for the alone time. Too often when I'm by myself or my brain isn't occupied I think too much (about anything) or stress myself out. I didn't sleep at all last night, then got a nap in earlier, so I'm still a bit overtired. But weirdly I just feel...calm. It's odd. Not really a "contentment" (I wish) just kind of a lull sorta. My brain is fairly quiet and that never, EVER happens to me.

I have absolutely no idea why I felt like sharing this. I guess I just have the urge to write but there's nothing really on my mind. I wonder why that happens... Especially when writing is used almost exclusively to vent or deal with certain circumstances that arise. Brains are weird. Sometimes I wish they were more logical, like a math problem with one way to work it, one solution. If they were, maybe people wouldn't get hurt so often.

Or maybe it's not that our brains aren't logical, so much as that our hearts just work differently and for whatever reason hearts are easier to follow. Or maybe that's only if you value instinct, or your gut, or your feelings above all.

When you look at it from an outside perspective it seems kind of stupid to "ignore" (for lack of a better word) logical and listen to things that (can't think of the word I want)...don't have any factual basis? Then again, I guess the logical answer isn't always necessarily the correct or true answer. Plus, our heads can mislead us... Overthinking can drive you crazy, can invent situations that don't even exist, or twist ones that do.

So maybe in that way, our hearts are actually the "smarter" of the two. You can control thoughts, but you can't control feelings or instincts... Does that mean that feelings and instincts are always "right"? That we should always follow them? I guess if it was that cut and dry, things would be much simpler, wouldn't they?

I have no idea what I'm talking about, lol. Oh, the ponderings of a sleep-deprived mind. I wonder if the head and the heart are ever really on the same side. Or maybe it's that when they are, that's when you know absolutely that you're making the right decisions. The parts that are decisions, anyway...