"Goodbye" is the word swimming around in my head, but my lips don't want to speak it. Life isn't easy, nor is it supposed to be, but why must everything be so difficult? Why does it seem like the things you should do are always the absolute hardest?
Why can't people act the way they should, and do the things they should, and things happen as they should? What proof is there that everything that is "right" works out in the end? Who's to say the things that go wrong weren't actually supposed to? What if people just fuck shit up with stupid decisions or actions? I guess there's no way to change that. But it sure fucking sucks.
I'm sad. I don't want to. But I think I have to. Because life is stupid. And good people get fucked, while others don't care, or take them for granted.
And that's the way it goes...
What is worth most in life is worth the difficulty, the pain, the heartbreak, the tears, the sweat, the blood. If we didn't know the depth of despair to which we can fall then we wouldn't know the high to which we can climb. Is it better to live a bland life, where you never take the smallest risk so as to not be hurt? Or is it better to love people, even though they will inevitably hurt us, and either continue loving them or learn from the lessons they have taught us? I tend to believe it is better to love people and learn the lessons. I do believe good can come out of absolutely everything, even if the good is just realizing you are stronger than you thought. The challenge is to let ourselves see and build on the good after the things have gone wrong, rather than just (what I call) "glorying in the melancholy" of it all. I wish people would act the way they should. Life would be a lot more pleasant if that were the case. Sadly we all sin and hurt ourselves and others but I do believe that God loves us more than all of that and there is always hope (and a lot more stuff but I don't want to get all preachy). I'm praying for you. <3
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