Dear Everyone.

It's always more to me. Everyone leaves. Everyone stops caring. Even when they say they won't. It's only a matter of when.

Not that I can blame them. I can't. That doesn't make it not hurt. It doesn't change the way I feel for them. But it's always more to me.

Everyone leaves. Everyone stops caring. Even when they say they won't. It's only a matter of when.

My heart aches. My heart breaks. Over and over again, the pain in my chest crushes me. When will I stop missing you? Her? Him? I won't. Even though you already have. Because its always more to me.

You fell into my life as if you were supposed to have always been there. And I was stupid enough to believe it. You said you wanted to make everything okay. And when you could, you chose not to. You turned away. And you lied. You lied.

What couldn't be ignored before is easy now. For you. I pretend not to see. As if I am a fool. For fear of losing. Losing you. Losing them. Losing everything. I have nothing left, anymore. And still I continue to lose. It has destroyed me. Because its always more to me.

Everyone leaves. Everyone stops caring. Even when they say they won't. It's only a matter of when.

You said you'd always be there.
You're not.

Trust me when I say you do not want to hear all the things I really have to say.

Sometimes I wish I'd never met you.