Complete & Total Randomness.

Of the many, many things I've been thinking about all week, I've been thinking about my likes and dislikes. That sounds silly, but there's actually some real reason behind it. In the process of trying to look "deep within" myself, I've also found a lot of silly things. Some obvious, some not so much. I've realized that I don't know if I've changed all that much since I was younger. I don't know if that's good or bad. A lot of times I feel like I've changed in bad ways....I used to be energetic, and fun, and...I dunno. But, I have an urge to write and with way too many serious thoughts going on, I figured I'd share this unimportant randomness instead. Since I know y'all are SO interested. Anyway...

I like funny TV. I like walking on the beach. I like sunsets. I like long talks. I like long talks about nothing important. I like watching my dogs play and act stupid. I like driving when there's no traffic. I like listening to 90's music really loud on my surround sound. I like that my friends can make me smile when I feel the worst. I like Easy Mac. I like blankets, and socks. I like putting a face with a screenname. I like finding people all over the world that make my heart smile. I like sappy stories. I like anything wedding-related. I like SEVEN. I like Disney music. I like not having to be at work until 11AM (even though sometimes that's still too early). I like that my work makes a difference, no matter how small. I like the possibility that maybe somehow, I make someone's day a little bit brighter.

I don't like missing people. I don't like when my friends hurt. I don't like when I can't help others. I don't like to go to bed without saying goodnight. I don't like feeling inadequate. I don't like that I make myself feel inadequate. I don't like rain (unless I'm sleeping). I don't like traffic. I don't like spicy food. I don't like animals being mistreated. I don't like being so far from everyone I love. I don't like most of the music on the radio today. I don't like cheating or lying. I don't like death or sickness. I don't like hate. I don't like jealousy. I don't like stupidity. I don't like two-faced bitches. I don't like disrespectful people. I don't like that the world is so full of unhappiness and suffering.

I love my family. I love my friends. I love my pups. I love music. I love live music even more. I love how music introduces me to other music that introduces me to other music. I love that my sister will always be my sister, even though there's no blood relation. I love that my true friends always have my back, even if I'm sometimes wrong and make mistakes. I love Star Wars. I love Harry Potter. I love that sometimes, it's okay to be a nerd (or at least I'll tell myself that). I love happy endings, even if they're predictable. I love Craig Ferguson's "awkward pauses". I love planning trips. I love California. I love when people love something as much as I do. I love knowing someone will always understand. I love feeling like I've known someone forever when we've only just met. I love the unexpected (when it's good). I love love, in all of its forms.

I think, regardless of what we like or don't, love or hate...life is gonna be what we make of it. Of course there are going to be things that are out of our control; that's inevitable. But it's time to start at least trying to make it what I want it to be. It isn't going to happen on its own. That may mean taking a stand for what we think is right and what we believe in. It may mean having to repeat ourselves a hundred times. Every opportunity is exactly that...it's a chance, and it has to be acknowledged. My beliefs are all kinds of crazy but I do believe that things happen for a reason, and people are sent into our lives for a reason. Sometimes even the smallest actions or choices can have an impact that we never even imagined. Sometimes you can meet a person by total random chance and they can turn out to be one of your closest friends for the rest of your life. It's just the way life works. It's the only life we get...and I've decided it's time to start living it to the best of my ability. Happily, healthily, and with the people I love.

xx